Sliding cats and new swifers........

Today at the shelter we had to do major cleaning in the scared/new cat area. We hot soapy bleach watered the walls and floor. Then we washed everything. My eyes still burn from the bleach. Still, it was fun. Me and K(a different K that I work with, not my sis) were talking throughout the whole thing. We talked about swifers and our blogs. Then, when I mopped the floor, the cats started to freak out and run! They were slipping all over the floor. I wanted to help them, but couldn't because I was to busy laughing! You should of seen it! So, when cleaning comes along, all you got to do is look around, sigh, and clean one thing at a time.....

Pills and Pain........

My ankle is killing me again. So, I took a pill that made my almost completely unable to get out of my bed, and I am now very tired. I just took another pill to help me sleep. I'm going to the doctor tom. for it. Yay. I am so tired and am in so much pain that I don't know what to do. So, I just look up, wherever I am, sigh, and take it one painful step at a time, pushing through. Just suffer in silence I guess.....

Angry People and Misunderstandings........

Today at school I had a misunderstanding with a friend, which made her very angry. I told her that I had to put down an animal before and she took it the wrong way. Now everybody is against me because I said it without feeling. Well when its been so long and you can't say it with feeling anymore, well, I just can't. Now I am sad, have a headache, and don't know what to do. I am cooped up at school right now, and cannot see the sky. I guess I will look up at the ceiling, sigh, and hope that my friends were listening when I told them to look at my blog to see why I am the way I am.....

NO MORE!........

Sometimes, you just need to cry
 it out when you can't fly away on broken wings.

ARG! I cannot take my dads girlfriend anymore! She keeps blaming everything on me! "You should of made them do this" "It's your fault that this wasn't done on time" and my personal favorite, "You little (fill in the blank)! I don't want you here anymore! You ruin everything!" Yeah, I get this everyday from her. Thank goodness I have a sanctuary, but it still doesn't get me away from her. I can't take it anymore! Not even my friends can help. Why? Because they know nothing. That's right. I fix all their problems, but they don't ever ask me how I am doing at home, or, what they think is my home. Home is where the heart is, and right now, my heart is in a million places! My one friend, with my mom, with the shelter, with my other friend. My mind isn't even set strait and I have finals coming up! I just wish that once, just once, I could have my dream come true. A nice day, where I went to school and everybody was happy and nice. Then I would come home, go to the shelter, relax a little. Next I would come home to a nice pile of books to curl up and read. Finally I would go to sleep (after a nice dinner of homemade mac-n-cheese) and actually sleep. But no. I wake up in the morning to yelling. I go to school to a list of friends problems and a ton of homework. I go home after school and go to the shelter and work some more, listen to more yelling (from cats and people) get home, and try to get my homework done. Then by the time I should be sleeping, I am still doing homework or just sitting awake, looking out my window. As much as I try, nothing works. SO what do I do? Just look up at those stars so far away in the sky, sigh, and take it one ticking minute at a time..... tick, tick, tick.....

Talking........

Today I went to the park with my friend, whom I have known since 2nd grade. He knows not to badger me about topics, but you know what he did? He badgered me. So what did I do? Looked up at the sky, sighed, and changed the subject. I then asked him if I could go home so that I could go take care of cats at the local shelter I volunteer at. He said if it made me happy. I felt so bad! Guilty that the time he actually took to spend time with me (we don't get to hang out a lot) was cut short because I couldn't answer a silly question. Grrrrness. Anyways, as he nicely walked me back to my house, there was an awkward silence between us. I wanted to shout out, "Yes OK!? I did say it, and I'm sorry I couldn't say so earlier!" Those words, the answer to his question were right on my lips, but then I found myself in front of my house. I said bye and we went our separate ways. Grrrness again. Goodness Glaciers! I am such a fool! Or am I? All I know is that I cannot stop talking, but when it comes to topics I want to avoid, I go into a defensive mode and don't want to talk at all. Well, before I went inside, I did look up at the sky, sigh, and take one small step at a time into my shelled state.....

Think about it........

Here is something I wrote. I wrote this shortly after I started my blog, which used to be two brothers to many, but I changed it, because of this. I didn't think I loved my brothers, but then somebody got me really mad and I wrote this. I know some people can relate to it, others may not, but if you do, then you understand. You just understand..... Well, here it is:

All I have to say is this. You talk bad about my brothers or make fun of them then you are just doing the same to me. I cannot believe some of you people thinking that you can say whatever you want behind someones back and think that you can get away with it. Just take five minutes and pull your head from out of that make believe world that you live in. Just because you rule there, doesn't mean that you rule in reality. And in those five minutes, put yourself into the shoes of the person that you are making fun of. How do you think they feel. Hm? Think about it.


Just think about it.....

Sneak Peek........

Here is a sneak peek of my new book, Ophelia and Michael......


          Darkness surrounds me. At first I am scared, but then the scene begins to lay itself out for me to see. What I am standing on is a long narrow dirt road in the middle of the woods. Trees surround me, only leaving the path of the road clear. I hear the rustle of leaves and sigh. I know this place. I may have never ever been here in real life but I am here in every one of my dreams. I walk over to a willow tree and sit at its wide base.
         I feel as safe as if I am in my mothers’ arms, the willow branches serving as her arms, the base of the trunk her front side holding me close. I close my eyes, listening to the soft whisper of the wind as it tells stories and secrets to all that would listen. The blades of grass swaying in the wind as if they are laughing at something that the wind whispered or swaying in closer to hear a small little secret. Maybe even a story or two that is being told silently. Even the trees seemed to sway closer to each other, telling secrets and stories, only bothered by the wind intruding on their conversation.
          Then a twig breaking ruins everything and my eyes shoot open. The twig snapped so close to me that it had made me jump. Then the forest seemed to go quiet, even the wind stopped telling secrets and stories to listen. I smile at whoever just startled me because it is my father. He just smiles back and starts to walk towards me. He stops about half way and says,
    " Ophelia, please help me. Help us. You must help us." I am startled at first but then find my voice and ask,
   "Why father? Help who? Who is us?" He starts to answer but then a sword point comes out of his chest. Scarlett blood starts dripping from the wound. He falls forward and I see his killer. The dark eyes pierce me as if he can see right through me.
    "Why?" I manage to squeak. He answers quickly.
    "You mustn’t take over now dearest. You will find out soon that life is not always as beautiful as this dream was."
          Then as soon as he finished the forest soon became frightening. The trees didn't bend over telling secrets or stories, no instead they leaned angrily towards me and the willows branches started whipping around in the now furious wind. The man leaned in as close as he dared to me and flashed a yellowed smile at me. I grimaced at how close he was. Before I had time to react he whipped out a small blade and held it to my throat. The ice cold metal touched my skin.
          I woke up. I was sweating and panting so much I may have just gotten done running a mile. My throat felt very dry, as if it was sandpaper. I felt as cold as ice and could still feel the blade on my neck. It was just a dream, I told myself over and over again. Then remembering the blade my hand automatically went up to my neck. At first I thought that I had imagined the cool liquid on my neck but then I went into my bathroom and saw the scarlet line of blood on my neck. I must have scratched myself. Maybe, I tell myself, I am still asleep. I pinch myself to make sure. Nope, definitely awake. This is almost too creepy. I decided that after that horrible dream that I will not be able to go back to bed. Instead I head to the girls dorm kitchen to find something to cure my sandpaper like throat.


Hope you enjoyed!

Summer........

WOOT WOOT! Summer is almost here meaning that school is almost over meaning that I get to go to my grandmas for a whole three months! Don't worry fellow bloggers I will keep you updated when I am away, and even post pictures! So far the weather has been in the 80's and I have been roasting, but not caring. No new problems have occured, so I don't have much to blog about. Though, if you do comment on this post, I will blog about that specific problem. I am also working on my book called Ophelia and Michael. I will post a sneak peek soon. Thats all for today, so I leave you with, look up at the sunny sky, sigh, and take it one step at a time. ENJOY THE WEATHER!

Mothers Day

This free digital ecard made with Smilebox

Songs........

So, some random songs that just popped into my head are:

1. Akon Mr Lonely
2. Tick Tock by Ke$ha
3. You'll be in my heart Phil Collins (Tarzan)
4. Circle of Life (Lion King)
5. Strangers Like Me (Tarzan)
6. Trashin the Camp (Tarzan)

I know most of these are children's songs, but I love them and am listening to them as I blog! Most of these songs teach you things. SO what do I do before I belt these songs out into the air? I look up at the sky, sigh, and belt out the songs one at a time ;) .....